Do you lack trust regarding what God will ask you to do or
give up when you talk with Him?
I'm ashamed to admit it but, sometimes I do. Even after
seeing His goodness, love, grace and mercy expressed
countless times in my life, and in the lives of others,
I still notice this lack of trust gripping my heart and
causing me to doubt that God's plans include what's
best for me.
Like most people, I've got goals and aspirations, hobbies
and agendas, to which I've decided how much of my time
to devote. Although God has promised to supply
all my needs according to His riches in glory by
Christ Jesus, its my wants that I'm afraid won't be
fulfilled.
Of course, therein lies the problem: the focus of
my life is still on me!
Only when I remind myself how much God loves me is it
even possible to truly accord God His proper place as
Lord and Master in my life.
As most of us know and confess, God loves us so much
that He decided before the first person was born that
His Son, Jesus, would die as the sin-bearer for
everyone's sins.
Given all that God does and has done for us - including
raising Christ from the dead as proof of Jesus'
righteousness and God's plan to do the same for all who
trust in Him, doubting God's unwavering good intentions
towards us, or His ability to accomplish them, is simply
a symptom of idolatry.
Self-deification - "me" as king on the throne of my life
- is the sin which is interrupting the intimate
fellowship with God that I truly crave and is preventing
me from living a full, trusting life! Only after I've
abdicated as the king of my life, surrendering it to
the One True King, will I ever escape the
unbelief-induced lack of trust that rules it now.
